Wow time flies...

I can't believe it has been a year since I wrote on this. I usually use this for venting unhappy things but I'm 100% happy with my life.
This week marked the halfway point in my pregnancy. Marty and I are so excited. In a little over a week we find out if we are having a girl or a boy though I know Marty is praying for a boy lol. Either way though we already have our names picked out. For a boy of course Marty wants a real junior as he always has and for a girl we chose Mackenzie Jo after my sister and his mom.
The baby room is about halfway done...painted but still waiting for some furniture and a few decorative/fun while great for development that I found on pinterest that I just have to have :-)
Marty has been the most amazing and supportive husband I could have ever imagined. While he knows I'm hormonal and sometimes act irrationally, the other day I broke a brand new cup I received for Christmas from one of my kiddos. I was so angry and upset, and as bad as this sounds I took it out on him. He gave me a hug and went to go grab dinner for us...he then showed up twenty minutes later with no food but he handed me four cups like the one that broke but one in every color they had. It seriously brought me to tears I was so happy. Like I said hormonal lol. But besides that he is just the best with helping me around the house and helping me to do things. I am so very blessed.
Like I said 100% happy. The baby is growing and that I am lucky enough to already be able to see. I was slightly over-weight when I got pregnant and have lost weight everywhere but my tummy...I feel like my baby bump is huge already. I'm able to feel him/her moving all the time and Marty even got to feel the baby when he/she stretched out. it was so amazing.
Life is amazing and it's only going to get better from here <3

I Forgive You

Dear Sarah,

I know you read this since drama has come of my writing on here. I forgive you. I have wasted so much time despising you for what you put me through and all the lies you have said about me, but I'm over it. If I keep hating you, you win. I'm a better person for what you've put me through. I'm stronger as a person and my relationship is stronger than ever. I hope to never hear about you again and wish you the best. You and both your children. You have a gorgeous family and I want nothing but great things for all of you. Have a wonderful life and I will do the same.

Sincerely,
Morgan

Married Life

Well drama surrounds me in some aspects but I'm done with it. People know the truth based on the facts and I know for sure the baby isnt his. In the beginning I was worried...now, I'm not wasting any more time on this. The End.

Married life isnt much different. Started a new job Monday doing what I love and working with an old friend :) Ready for Christmas :) Timmy and his family have already received presents in NY and everyone else is wrapped and under the tree. I will say, I did go slightly overboard on Marty but he'll love it. So excited. And I only work Monday and Friday the week of Christmas. This is amazing.

Life is amazing and I look forward to what is to come :)

Baby Update / Wedding info

Few weeks ago, Sarah was out at the bar with her friends. One of which is a mutual friend of one of our good friends. Apparently over drinks, she was telling her life story about her children, their dad's ect. Well on that note, she was talking about her son Tristan and his father, Weston. You heard it right people. She said his dad was Weston and was even showing pictures and everything. All this pointless drama we've been dealing with for over a year now was exactly that, pointless drama. She knew from the beginning that it wasn't Marty's, explains why she was so "offended" when Marty's mom requested a DNA test. As of now, there has still not been a DNA test but sources say even she commented on how much the baby looks like his dad. But since finding out she had told this to OUR friend, she recanted. Told her she lied to our friend because she was embarrassed of what happened with Marty and I. This statement could be true, but it doesn't really make sense for it to be the truth. I believe she wanted to try and stir the pot before our upcoming wedding so she said it was a lie. Now she has said that she got an at home DNA test with Weston, and he isn't the dad anymore....funny how everything changes now that our friend knows us. I swear she thrives off the drama. My friend told her exactly what I would of told her, if that's the case, file child support. Weeks later nothing has been filed, surprise, surprise...guess she was looking to get a rise out of us. Unfortunately for her, I know people that can see pictures of her son and I know what Weston looks like...I'm happy to say. He doesn't look like Marty. Bleach blonde hair sure doesn't come from either Sarah or Marty. Yes he is blonde, but he is strawberry blonde. Weston is actually blonde...Oh and the hairline on Weston and Tristan are the same. Looking back I know why she never filed child support, why she wanted Marty/his parents to pay her off when they split, and why she threatened if he left how much money he would have to pay her....Tristan was never Marty's to begin with. Now this is my opinion and many people share this opinion, but we will keep everyone updated. I don't know if she thought the child being his would of broken us or what, but Marty and I made a decision first of all when we got back together and second when he asked me to marry him. If the child is his, he will be a part of that child's life. We both will. Marty and I are going to have our own children in a few years and we look forward to that every day names are already picked out. :)
Oh, pray for Tristan...i may not like Sarah but Tristan is innocent in this mess...He has a lot of health issues with his heart and stomach where he is seeing specialists. I'm sure it has a lot to do with her smoking and who knows what else when she was pregnant but I'm not going to bash her in this aspect because she knows what she did. Keep him in your prayers.
Enough with the drama...

Wedding!!!! I'm so very excited. I have my final fitting in the next week or so. Hair and make-up has almost been decided on, trial is on Wednesday but she came recommended and I can't beat her prices so hopefully that goes well. We are getting the final count for the wedding and reception. My girls in their own way, each of them has done so much for me. And Marty...lol...took him til this month, but he is finally in gear and helping with last minute wedding stuff. I watch these shows like Bridezilla and trust me when I say, the stress can make you a monster easily, but I've managed to not lose it completely and like i said everyone has done their part to help me through this stressful time :) so lucky. Marty and I are blessed to have wonderful families and amazing friends. I'm so very excited :-D I'm sure these next few weeks are going to fly by and that is 100% okay with me. I'm ready for it, so ready.
Marty caught my eye when I was 13 years old...I guess sometimes you just know. He is my best friend and we will stand by each other through anything. That is a promise <3

Havent updated in a good while so here it goes

Well Marty and I have been back together for over a year and things couldnt be better. Wedding is in November. We have our own house. The dogs are happy as can be with a front and back yard.
Marty and I have dropped all the negative people out of our life and are cherishing our friendships we have right now.
Things have been slightly stressful with the wedding quickly approaching but it all seems to be coming together. Guess I'll be posting more wedding stuff as things get planned but for now its time for bed.

Well I guess being just friends doesn't work for us...one night of hanging out and that was all it took...marty broke up with sarah the next day...he will still be there for their kid if she allows him to but it will be me by his side...
the world is full of surprises and this was just another one...i know marty and i love eachother and that is all that matters. <3

Things are looking a lil brighter...

Well...Marty and I are on really good talking terms. I've spent almost all my free time the last two days at his shop just bullshitting with him about anything and everything. I love him to death. I know him and I know what he is going to end up doing, but he needs to do it for him. One thing I keep telling him is that I am his friend first and foremost. I would love him to end up with me in the end, but truth is Marty has to make that decision for himself and honestly needs some time to find himself. I know who he is and what he will become...he just isn't ready to be that person yet. And i'm okay with that...even if he was single, I wouldn't be jumping back into anything with him. He needs time. I know what I want out of a relationship with him because i know exactly who I am. Marty knows who he is just not where he wants to go when he is that person. I think he thinks growing up and relationships mean no fun...where I see relationships as a bonus and you have more fun. He is my best friend. I will stand by him through every decision he makes whether I like it or not just as I would any of my friends.