Can I say that i'm not thrilled to be back as much as I thought i would be. I'm glad to be back with my friends that have stuck by me through years, but this move has put so much strain on Marty and I. This move was mainly for Marty...it was his dream job and I couldn't let him pass this up...we knew I wouldn't have a job right away but with me not working, its got things looking like a few times in our past.
I feel so depressed these days. I have made Marty one of the most important things in my life and I feel everything slipping away. He tells me things are fine and that everything is going good these days, but the way he acts lately is driving me crazy. He has his moments of just being the guy of my dreams the sweet amazing guy i fell in love with...and then he has his moments where i think he wishes i didn't exist.
I got myself a part-time job starting at Lowes in a week or so hopefully things start looking up. Classes are almost done with for the semester and currently I have all A(s). Hopefully I finish the semester with that...
I could really use a wish right now...someone please give me a break...life shouldn't always be so difficult...
